t h e r e m i n i s c e n t s t a r - -
v2.o -star.
thereminiscentstar .
portia jolene ; posh * lene * (:
LALAPOLYPOCKETCHOONG ;
going 19 .
nafa svaf .
attached . =)
they call me starshine ; tinkerbell ; queenLALA*
191286
broken; and worthless .
hyper .
not what i seem to be .
tend to lose myself in thoughts .
daydreamerr .
sadistic .
black ; hotpeenk ; orange ; white ; purple .
lamee . extremely at times .
comforts people ; but yearns comfort from friends .
cynical .
imperfect .
stubborn .
bossy .
extremely fragile ;
has a soft mushy heart .
am redundant whereever i am . =)
yearns to fly *
je'taime .
the Man Up there . =))
him. =D
churchies .
EEYOREE !
monokuro boo .
cinnamoroll .
starrs .
my telescope . also known as my WIFE . =]
butterflies .
qing tian wawa .
windmills .
carousels .
dancing .
clubbing .
esplanade .
east coast .
southern most point .
changi airport .
marina south .
to be a unique !
blowing bubbles .
jewellery making . =D
taking black&white photographs .
photoshopp !
princess .
cousins shannon&jamie !
sad songs .
piano ; sax ; guitar . (but can't play any)
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁
一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难,想切割切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐
我对自己说
蜡烛点了
寂寞亮了
生日快乐
泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你的一点恨
还要时间
才能平衡
热恋伤痕
画面重生
祝我生日快乐
happy birthday to me ... :)
;elysium.
12:26:00 AM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
并不是真的路过而已
也不是真的我会想你
全部不是真的
是骗自己
其实还爱你
爱着你
我以为我早想清楚
不由自主恍恍惚惚又走回头路
再看一眼有过的幸福
爱情好象流沙
我不挣扎
随它去吧我不害怕
爱情好象流沙
心里的牵挂
不原放下 oh baby 让我这样吧
爱情好象流沙
我不说话
等待黑暗让眼泪落下
爱情好象流沙
明知该躲它
无法自拔 oh baby 是我太傻
是一再的做
一再的错不由我
我一步一步一步一步慢慢走向流沙
just dropping by with lyrics for 流沙 ((:
till the next blogskin ..
or the next drop by . (:
;elysium.
12:33:00 PM
Thursday, October 05, 2006
i know i said i wont be back till the next change of blogskin ..
but just thought of dropping by . ((:
kboxed today with THEdarlie and THEyandao . (:
been long since i last saw yandao .
heh .
but well .
kbox always link back to certain thoughts .
and for once i didnt exactly cry .
well not on the outside anyways .
(:
ahh wells .
thoughts thoughts .
i'm fine thou .
no worries .
just droppingg byy to say hiii .
and off i go again .
ppps : ideas for new blogskin anyone !?
if not .
i've got no idea when the blogskin's gonna be up .
=X
off i go !
;elysium.
11:24:00 PM
i know i said i wont be back till the next change of blogskin ..
but just thought of dropping by . ((:
kboxed today with THEdarlie and THEyandao . (:
been long since i last saw yandao .
heh .
but well .
kbox always link back to certain thoughts .
and for once i didnt exactly cry .
well not on the outside anyways .
(:
ahh wells .
thoughts thoughts .
i'm fine thou .
no worries .
just droppingg byy to say hiii .
and off i go again .
ppps : ideas for new blogskin anyone !?
if not .
i've got no idea when the blogskin's gonna be up .
=X
off i go !
;elysium.
11:24:00 PM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
hello.
this is an official notice that i wont be back here till further notice .
gonna be moving elsewhere for the time being .
am not gonna disclose the url here .
so msn/tag/msg/email/whatever me if you bother enough to find out.
((:
but i will be back .
(:
yes . that's all .
goodbye for now my dearest blog .
the ghost of you .
;elysium.
12:11:00 AM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
unknowingly ..
my previous entry was the 4ooth .
so this makes 4o1th .
i can't exactly type properly.
so i forsee alot of spelling errors and suchs in this entry .
my hand hurts .
but not as muchas myheart.
disappointment .
if only yoo called it would make everything so much better .
thanks dory pig for calling .. to make sure everything was fine .
thanks .
somehow whoever you least expect to call or be there when you need them to be ..
always turns out to be the one there instead .
oh the irony of fate .
of life .
freaky games we play really .
no ?
i'm wndering when you'll actually try calling my house .
or maybe you wont .
maybe you're not very okay at the moment too .
so i guess maybe i shouldn't complain to much .
yes ?
i just feel so fucking horrible ..
so .
damn .
fucking .
hhorrible.
;elysium.
5:31:00 PM
Monday, October 02, 2006
Got up early, found something's missing
my only name.
No one else sees but I got stuck,
and soon forever came.
Stopped pushing on for just a second, then nothing's changed.
Who am I this time, where's my name?
I guess it crept away.
No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.
I forgot that I might see,
So many beautful things.
Take this happy ending away, it's all the same.
God won't waste this simplicity on possibility.
Get me up, wake me up, dreams are filling
this trace of blame.
Frozen still I thought I could stop,
now who's gonna wait.
No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.
So many beautful things.
Now what do I do?
can I change my mind?
did I think things through?
It was once my life - it was my life at one time.
I forgot that I might see,
So many beautful things.
I forgot that I might need,
to find out what life could bring.
;elysium.
8:57:00 AM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
the art of letting go ..
this is when i'll disappear .
- the evanescence .
goodbye .
;elysium.
9:32:00 PM
sometimes i think being in denial isn't sucha bad thing after .
sad thing is i can no longer do that .
reality sucks . who doesn't know tht ?
it sucks to know .
sucks to feel .
sucks to not be able to stop your bloody heart from aching .
aching so bad you feel as though you're choking .
emotional entanglements suck .
what's the point ?
i don't know .
neither do alot of people .
different points of view i can accept .
but not this . i can't .
as much as i wanna try to i can't ..
i can't i can't i can't .
i'm alr bleeding inside .
i need to stop .
i really need to .
as much as i wanna pretend i'm fine .
i'm okay .
i can't .
how can i be okay if i feel like crying even while listening to promiscuous girl ?
i can't .
i KNOW i'm not okay .
but yeah .
nothing seems to help at the moment .
somebody rip my heart out and leave it out here to bleed ..
please ?
;elysium.
7:42:00 PM
eternitywithYOU.
Zen Neeon .
new laptop .
Christian Dior - Dolce Vita .
Corrinne May's 2 albums .
Plumb's albums .
Dishwalla's albums .
Nicholas Spark's books .
Levis 501 & Diva Jeans .
Chronicles of Narnia .
a new starglobe . =|
my daisy rock star bass .